Not Finished Just Yet
Two years ago, I used to be someone that felt sorry for myself. A person that didn’t appreciate life and anticipated the most negative of outcomes to occur in my future. Through the darkest of times came depression, anxiety, self-esteem issues, etc. I couldn’t pull through it; I felt like I didn’t have the energy or motivation, and it started to take the most gut wrenching tole on me. There was no way to pull through, and as I became weaker, it became more challenging to understand that mind over matter is key, but I was too physically drained to think about what I’d be throwing up for breakfast in the morning, let alone expect my brain to pull me through the hole I crawled way too deep in.
As time passed though, the treatment became lighter, and my experience with facing death head on, ironically became my saviour. In general, I have been given so many useful opportunities to pursue my passions and goals, in ways that are unbelievable to me, after getting the strength to move on and never look back.
In time, it will be in the past and I’m looking forward to the future. Knowing that I’m on a train this very moment to Toronto to be interviewed for the Terry Fox Scholarship worth a total of $28,000 ($7000 per year), I have somehow found myself to be very proud of my accomplishments that have occurred in the past year or so. Being financially stable gives me the chance to move on, not have to worry, and live life. It also gives me a bit of relief, knowing that my treatment was very expensive, and this will give my parents the chance to save money after all they have done for me, making that weight a little less heavy on their shoulders. In order for this to happen though, I need this scholarship. I don’t want to be anxious about this, and be able to integrate so many things in my life that I never got the chance to do in high school. Like volunteer even more, join clubs and organizations at Carleton University, as well as externally be able to give my time and effort to something I’m passionate about, without asking for anything in return.
If you have been through anything similar to cancer or even something incredibly difficult in your life, you’ll understand how your mind is opened to so many possibilities and opportunities. To experience life and different environments, I believe is something so important to not be close-minded, and get the chance to expand your knowledge a little bit more. It also allows you to develop the skills you need for the work force, as you have to deal with work, people, and other difficult tasks in the workforce. Fortunately, I have been given several opportunities to develop skills in my life, especially now that I publicly speak on a regular basis, advocating for others, especially children who have cancer, who do not have a voice and can’t express their pain through their words. Being someone who has gone through what their going through, gives me the chance to open up to the public about how difficult it is for children, and for their parents watching them, to go through this difficult moment in life. And I can do this in several ways: through my writing, through creating videos/documentaries, through public speaking, through volunteering, etc.
In order for all of us to come together and make a change in this world, you have to want to be involved in whatever your pursuing to change. It doesn’t have to be cancer. It can be anything you want, such as volunteering to feed the homeless, joining a domestic violence support organization, and so on.
It can be tough to push yourself to make a change, because what can you do, right? In reality, the smallest thing, can be the most influential aspect in someone’s day, month, year, or lifetime. To make the smallest of changes for someone going through a difficult time, is not only inspiring to them, but it’s satisfying for yourself, knowing that you could be a source of support for someone.
So, get up off the couch, put the bag of chips down, and turn off the TV. It’s time to make a change.